Christmas 2017

So this happened this week....

Luckily we all survived pretty well even with me starting this school year with a job. Here's hoping the rest of the year goes just as well!

I seem to just blink...

Okay so I blinked, and it's almost July again. What the heck?! Craziness has continued in our household by adding more thing to the mix - me back at work. It started out part-time, gradually increasing hours though. Which is nice. It's nice to be amongst adults again & it's very nice to be earning a "paycheck" again. I became an independent consultant for Jamberry last March and it was one of the best decisions I made. And now I have more money to feed the habit HAHA.

The monkeys are still monkeys with additional play equipment. Hubby built them a really nice play set (sold the last one). All the ones that we could have purchased in the store seemed to be too short so he designed one last year (worked on it for a while, pricing everything) & finally got it built. The only addition you can't see in these pics is the wall climbing structure in the back and a zipline on the side.

And just like that it's next to the last day of school and the monkeys are on their way to first grade....how did that happen so fast? My boys have been on a shark kick lately (mostly Elias but they're all playing a shark game on their tablets). It was play day at school and since we just got these shirts on Sunday they were begging to wear them. Purely coincidental that it's shark week on the Discover channel :D

It's July???

Okay, so when did this happen? I blinked, forgot about posting and all of a sudden it's JULY! W.O.W.

The boys finished their first year of school with some great experiences. We went on a field trip (Tuesday before school let out) to the Safari Zoo in Fort Erie (one we've been to before). It had some more fun for them than the last time we were there. They added some big pillow jumpers and some other rides that my boys loved. I was very thankful I brought our folding wagon and put all our bags and lunches in it. I had one additional school kid with me. I decided to get the jumping out of the way from the beginning so we could go see the animals. That turned out to be a smart decision because the sun had a chance to "warm them up" and they were super hot when they tried again in the afternoon! My group caught up to the teachers a few times and since we were beside them when they were on their way to the buses, they took my 1 school kid. Since I drove myself to the field trip, I got to keep my kids and enjoy the rest of the park. Just being there from 10-something to 1pm didn't seem enough for me (especially considering the entrance fee!). I took them to the splash pad and they also got to play on the little roller coaster and a few other rides they had.

G decided he'd had enough of the rides and wanted to play with these big chess pieces they had. His brothers stayed on the rides. After a few minutes he told me he had to go to the bathroom really bad. I told him to wait and that I had to tell his brothers to wait for me at the rides (not too many people so I wasn't worried. They could have just kept going on the rides). As I was telling E & J that I was headed to the bathroom I looked back & G has already pulled his pants down and was peeing on a tree. I started laughing and so did a few of the other parents. One of the moms even said "not anymore!" (not headed to the bathroom anymore). I apologized but what can you do when a 4 year old has to pee? After that we went and played in the big sandbox. We're usually rushing through so they don't get to play for long but this time I let them do as they pleased. I sat and chatted with a fellow mom and they ran around and played. As we got ready to leave around 4:30, we let them go on the balancer for kids. They really enjoyed that!

 A few days after this, school was over!






I felt horrible the day after school was out so I went to the walk-in when lo & behold I was diagnosed with a double-ear infection, throat infection and chest infection. Y.U.C.K. I was thankful I was put on antibiotics and started to feel better before we headed to my parents on July 2!

6 months in....

Six months into the school year and E finally tells me this morning that he loves school! I'm sure that opinion will change day by day but at least we got one :)

Snowmageddon 2015...

On Monday February 2 we got about a foot of snow between the night before and about 11 the next day. For this reason, many schools were closed and even some city offices. I was beyond thrilled not to get up as early since I'm still recovering from the small flu (last week) & (ongoing) sinus infection. Mike even stayed home from work. Our subdivision had many snow squalls on both sides of the street and I doubt any of us would have been able to get out of here.

Luckily, it wasn't as bitter cold in the afternoon and the winds finally died down enough so we could go shovel outside. Man oh man. It was high!

We can't get out!

We can barely lift our legs over this stuff...

At least it wasn't "wet" snow...this was pretty fluffy. Couldn't make snowballs or snowmen out of this snow!

Mommy, it looks like a wave!

Trying to see if they can touch the branches

Daddy made a slide!

Earlier in the morning

Later that day....

2014 Christmas/New Years...

Aside from the fevers/chills that wouldn't end Christmas was very nice this year. First of all, the boys are way more into it than any previous year. I almost caved several times and let them open some presents. We did agree to let them open the ones from my parents/friends on Christmas Eve to appease them a little until the next morning.

Rima (Mike's sister) got to visit for Christmas with her husband and son this year which made it all the more special. We had dinner Christmas Eve and then Rima & Greg stepped out for Midnight Mass but because of all the waking up every night I was just too beat to go this year. We set out Santa presents and Rima set out all the things that she brought. We didn't make them wait too long that morning before they got to open the gifts.

We ended up sleeping in the same house for 3 nights which was very nice. We didn't have to worry about leaving and coming back, we could sit and watch movies as late as we wanted and wake up & have breakfast together the next day. We were able to get some nice family pictures too. The first time we tried to take a family picture, G wasn't there (which we didn't notice at first). Everyone came over to the stairs and we set up (I kept thinking there was something wrong) & I put the timer with 9 shots. I went to check on the pics and all of a sudden, G came from the dining room (he was busy playing his tablet in the kitchen and was oblivious to the commotion in foyer) and turned the corner and just looked at us sitting on the stairs. All of us broke into "Gaby!" and started laughing, not believing we did the pics without him.

The boys took a bath in grandma's bathtub (which they love) & afterwards J combed G's hair. As he was combing it he said "Gaby you have really curly hair."

New Years was very calm (especially compared to Christmas) but we were all okay with that. Mike's parents spent the night and we all toasted at midnight. The champagne we had on hand wasn't very good so we drank more of the sparkling grape juice the boys had :)

And just like that our Christmas break was over.

Out with the Old, in with the New & Old is back again...

The boys didn't go to school for most of December. Starting the first full weekend of December we went to daddy's work Christmas party for kids which entailed being at the Cineplex early Saturday morning to meet Santa and to watch The Penguins of Madagascar movie. They really enjoyed both but unfortunately afterwards we had to make a quick stop at the walk-in clinic for me. I had a throat infection which kept me from sleeping much the night before. Poor Elias and daddy were up with me after 5 a.m. I got meds and then we went to our yearly friend Christmas party that night. Unfortunately, Jacob developed a fever and cough and wasn't feeling nearly as perky as he should. Elias was a little jealous of the attention and tried pretending he was sick (pretended so much that on Monday he really did start coughing). From that day Monday on, Jacob did not go to school. The other 2 went to school for 3 days that week and then were off. Gaby came down with 5th disease (or slap in the face disease) because it looked like he got slapped in the face (one cheek was really red one day and then the rest of his face got pink/red). They kept getting mild fevers (100ish or below) so I couldn't send them to school the whole week after either. We went to school to give their teachers a gift on the last day & found out their main teacher was leaving and going to another school. We were very happy we could see her one last time before she took on her new job.

The weekend right before Christmas (Sunday/Monday morning) Gaby woke up with serious chills and kept telling me nothing was wrong. I got scared and took him the ER. Turns out he had just an ear infection but he kept getting the chills every night. Looking back, I wonder if he had the flu because the weekend after New Years Mike got a fever and it finally broke this past Wed. On Friday, I got a note from Jacob's teacher saying he was complaining of a headache and stomach ache & he really wouldn't eat much unless she sat beside him. He ended up getting a fever yesterday afternoon and still one today. I hope it's gone soon & not many others catch it. We are ready for everyone to be healthy!

Come & Gone...

September & October have come & gone and November is almost on its way out. With these passing's many memories were made.

September:
17th - Mike & I celebrated our 9th marriage anniversary. Some days I can't believe its been that long and other days I feel like I've known him my whole life. No matter what, I cannot imagine my future without him.

19th - We got to visit my cousin in Detroit. It was so awesome to finally have our kids playing together. The kids have asked to go back and play with them & she's told me her kids have asked about ours. I hope to have more play times soon!

28th - We went to Frootogo Farms & picked apples courtesy of Mike's work. The boys had a great time & we even got to go on a tractor ride. It wasn't a super long ride but it took us to the back pumpkin patch and you could pick as many as you wanted. We let the boys each pick one and then we got a free one with our work coupon.

October:
16th - My mom flew in for the boys' birthday weekend. The boys had no idea she was going to come. When Mike & I went to the bus stop to pick them up, my mom hid behind us and as they came down the stairs we separated and showed them who was between us. J seemed a little thrown back by it and E gave her a hug then asked if Autie (Angelina) was waiting at the house & G didn't even pay attention (he was too busy waving to people on the bus) until we called his name and he finally saw her.

17th - Luckily they didn't throw too big of a fuss the next day & went to school with the promise that we were coming to bring cupcakes for them & their class. When we got there, the boys were wearing birthday crowns and had a birthday button and a bracelet (in their color of course). They were just finishing up lunch and then we gave everybody their cupcakes. They had a hard time letting us leave without them, which their teacher noticed, and she just told us that they were just going to go outside and play for the rest of the day if we wanted to take them home. The boys were super excited to leave and so we gathered their things and headed to Walmart to pick up some last minute items for their party the next day. My dad and brother made it on their flights that night but came in after the boys had already went to bed.

18th - Their birthday party went off really well. The boys woke up and heard my dad snoring in the adjoining room so G & J (E was sleeping with Mike & me) went off to investigate where the noise was coming from & then ran back to their room. They were excited to see grandpa and even found Andrew in another room. We had a good time at their party & Mike made balloon animals/shapes for the kids (I got a crown!).

19th - My dad had to leave because he had to be at work school on Monday & couldn't get out of it. We spent the rest of the day at the mall & just enjoying each other.

20th - We picked up the boys from school & we finally got to see them play outside! It was so cute to see them running around & I was impressed that they had big tricycles for them & G & E were busy riding a couple (they have over a dozen of tricycles).

21st - Mom and Andrew had to go home but we really enjoyed their visit & can't wait for the next time.

22nd - The boys took their first field trip and it was to Puddicombe Farms. It was so cold but at least we didn't have to be there the whole day. They did pretty well but at the end, they had to leave me and go back to school on the bus and that was hard but they did it.

23rd - We finally changed our garage doors! It was so exciting to get that done and they look beautiful.

29th - Unfortunately, the KC Royals didn't win the World Series but they put up a hell of a fight! Watching & cheering all the way from Canada made me so proud to be from KC!

31st - Halloween!!! With this, the school hosted a Move-A-Thon fundraiser. All the FDK were in the gym for an hour in their costumes, dancing along to music. It was so cute to see all these little guys dressed up! I was impressed with G and how outgoing he was. He danced almost the whole time. There was a little girl that kept following G around and they danced together & held hands. It was so cute! They were even wearing the same costume (batman/batgirl).
It was drizzling a little when the kids started out for trick-or-treating but not too bad & it let up eventually. I took the first leg and went north with the kids. G old just about everyone as soon as they opened the door that E was the Hulk. Once we got back to our house, Mike took them the other way & after they got to the T in the street, they were done and wanted to come home. They walked away with quite a loot!

November
Feels like the kids have been sick for most of this month & G or J has been home off and on at least once a week.
7th - G tells me that his throat hurts and he can't swallow & he has a little fever. I kept him home and took him to the walk-in the next day and surprise surprise, he has strep again. When he saw the meds the pharmacist was putting in the bag, he said "That medicine again?" Very observant, little one!

11th - Got one last day of good weather so the kids got to play in the leaves outside while daddy winterized everything. As they ran from the deck to the pile of leaves they shouted "Cannonball!!!"

13/14th - The kids had a scheduled PA day so Mike took the day off and we booked Fallsview Indoor Waterpark in Niagara. We took the kids out of school a little early on Thursday & headed to the falls. It was a total surprise and they had no idea. When we got to the hotel they thought we were just going to swim in the hotel pool and were getting upset when we went outside to head towards the park. Once we got in though, they were in much better spirits and were excited. E & J were not chicken and went down some of the big water slides (unfortunately they weren't tall enough to go on every slide but they still had a fair amount they could go on). G was a little chicken & wouldn't try even the short slides they had. The next day we were at the park by 10:30 and J got cold pretty quickly. It didn't feel as warm at first but once you got used to it it was good. At least the temperature inside the park was warm and you were comfortable in shorts or your suit. As we were waiting on the structure for Mike to come down one of the body slides, G left my side and went a floor below us and just went down the small yellow water slide by himself. I was so impressed, I couldn't believe that he chose to do it finally. Once he went once, he couldn't stop going! I would say he went down that slide about 50 times. He also tried the small green slide they had and I was impressed because part of that was in a tunnel. He wouldn't go on the bigger slides even though they were just a little longer but at least he tried the others. Bigger ones will come later ;) Maybe we'll go to a park where he can actually go down with us and he won't be so nervous.

Chugging Along...

Two whole days without a tear at the bus stop, woohoo! J actually gets excited to tell me bye from his seat. They still object a bit when they know they have to go again the next day (& have some cracking voices the night before about it) but when they wake up and are at the bus stop we are okay. My voice cracks a "little" as I wave and tell them bye, but at least my heart isn't hurting after.

I've been sort of productive in my days. I have had to do a few errands lately (which seem to eat up all my time!) but at least I'm getting out & enjoying these last of these nice days. I cleaned a lot of the house yesterday & today did a couple of errands & had time to do some crochet & go on a bike ride with Mike when he got home from work. We discovered two new parks & saw some "whoa big" houses that are close by. Who knows, maybe some stuff off the "to do" lists will get crossed off soon ;)

First Full Week of School!....

Welcome to our test week. Since the school staggered them in last week this is the first time the boys have had to go to school everyday (let alone 5 days in a row).

On Friday (first time getting on the bus by themselves to school), J had some mini meltdowns. He was fine in the morning, until it was time to put on our shoes to go to school. He started crying right then and all the way to the bus stop. The lady whose house we stand at is super nice (& her daughter helps direct my wee ones on the bus) went inside and got some tissues for all of us (I say all because he even got some of the other moms crying). When I asked him why he said because he was worried about me. What a great boy! He went on the bus anyway when it came (with the chapstick in his backpack) and would just turn around and between crying hiccups say "I love you mommy, I'll miss you". Ugh, I had a hard time keeping that together. They all sat side by side and the bus pulled away. My heart was torn.

Fast forward through the weekend (& some runny noses, bleh) & last night we had 2 in tears that didn't want to go (E & J). Not what I needed. I hoped by morning time they would be better. My hope was crumbled as I woke them them up & they immediately start crying after finding out they have to go to school. Being by myself in the morning is rough when I have wee ones crying & trying to get their lunches ready but somehow we pulled through this morning. I found 3 pictures in my purse that had their dad and me in them and asked who wanted what pic and then we put them in their backpacks. Whenever they wanted to "see" us they could just look at it. We brought tissues this time and they did pretty well. J looked back a little in line and said he'd miss me but without nearly the same amount of hiccups. E didn't cry at the bus stop but he had a frown on his face which I tried to distract out of him by showing him the crew that was working on the house next door. That cheered him up some (I also did much better and only had a slightly cracked voice instead of tears). When they came home later, they were in better spirits and they all said they had a good day. J said he got to play with playdough & they all got to paint (which is the main thing they all wanted to do at school). When it came time to go to bed and get our things ready for school the next day they replied with "I already went". So far G is the only one not really complaining but what I gather (my boys are not too talkative about school and I think I'm missing some key information on what they do share) is that he is actually playing with other kids while E & J are not. E & J are sitting during recess and acting miserable (which I think is weird because that's the time to run). I went to the school today to see what happened during recess (& hoped to see them) but I guess I wasn't on the right recess shift. I did see the little kids and big kids on the same playground (not the smaller one I envisioned) which made me happy. I also saw hundreds of kids just running around and chasing each other & hoped my 3 were doing the same but I guess not. Hopefully it continues to get better for them, especially once they have all the supplies in their room that they're supposed to have (like the sand box and water stuff that the other classrooms have).

front to back: J, E G

front to back: J, E, G

On a side note, the boys got new bikes on Friday! Their poor legs were just getting too long for their tricycles.


Wish us luck for tomorrow's bus stop!

We Survived!!!

The first day of school is finally over and I'm happy to report we all survived!

I first started waking up around 6:15, worried that I'd oversleep or not have enough time to do everything. I would go back to sleep but would look at the clock every now & then. I finally got up at 7:10 and started getting myself ready for the morning. If we were taking them in the van I'd have to look semi-presentable at the school. G woke up after me all smiles. I asked him if he was ready to go to school and he said yes. I finished getting ready and then woke up the other 2. They were all smiley and happy that they were going to go. I got their lunches all ready & made everything fit. They ate all their breakfast and got dressed. We were early in getting ready so I was able to take a few pictures at the house. We even saw the kids getting on at their bus stop. Gaby started worrying that he wasn't going to school since he didn't get on the bus. I had to keep explaining that today was a special day & that mommy and daddy were going to take them so we could meet their teacher.

We finally piled in the van and were on our way! I asked if they were excited and all said yes. We found where all the other kindergartners were and waited patiently. They were still okay at this point. The problem came when the bell rang to go inside. Jacob had a meltdown. "No mommy don't go" "I don't wanna stay" "I'm done" (of course, all while screaming & tears in his eyes). I tried to calm him down and get him back in line but he wasn't having it. Luckily the other 2 were good and weren't really paying attention. I asked if I could help him get in his class and they said yes. This calmed him down some but he was still really nervous. I helped him in and after the anthem and prayer got his backpack hung up. He then went back to meltdown mode (especially since there was another little girl that was having one with her mommy too). I racked my brain for something that could calm him down and finally settled on giving him something of mine to hold on to. All I could find in my purse (that I would be willing to lose) was chapstick but it worked. I asked him to keep it in his pocket and if/when he was sad he could hold on to it and remember I love him. He calmed down enough to sit down with the other kids on the carpet. He looked back and I waved at him from the window & he waved back & seemed OK.

We drove home and relished in the quiet for a bit while we ate breakfast & filled in both grandmas as to what happened in the morning. We got ourselves ready for a day out on the lake since the weather was warm and we were kid free for 6 hours! We spent it at the Burlington/Hamilton Harborfront biking from one side to the other. We went from one side to the other (about 20km total) and then had lunch at Barangas. So happy for nice days!

They came home and were still in one piece as they came off the bus. Mike heard one of the girls from our neighborhood tell the boys that it was their turn to get off. I started asking them how their day was and E told me that Jacob whined because he missed mommy. I told him it was okay & that he'll get better the more he goes. I tried to ask them more and more what happened during their day and they didn't say much. J said he did "I spy with my little eyes" with his teacher. When I asked what they thought of the bus ride they collectively were in agreeance that it was great (J's exact words to be exact).

This is their first artwork for the fridge :)
The poem is so sweet:

The kissing hand poem
It's my first day of school, 
and I'm thinking of you.
I made this precious handprint, 
so you'll think of me too. 

On my first day of school, 
"The kissing hand" is what we read. 
It's about a raccoon named Chester, 
who did just as his parents said. 

Like the raccoon's first day of school,
I was scared and a little shy,
but because I thought of you,
I was brave and got by. 

All through the year, 
I'll make more things for you, 
so as I change and as I learn, 
you can share in the fun too!





All in all the main thing is that we survived. I know they know what to expect so I won't be as worried. They will always know that I am home waiting for them.

To My 3 Little Monkey's Before You Start School...

Today is the last night before you go off to Junior Kindergarten tomorrow. As I watch some of our home movies from the times before you were one, I have mixed feelings.

I am super thrilled for all the new experiences you will have. I know you'll be great boys in the class and have a lot of fun playing with all the new toys and new friends that you will make. There are so many new things for you to learn; about the world; about yourselves. I know I can't keep you home forever. I know each of you will grow up so quickly now; especially with all the learning you'll do. I hope for all of you to find a good friend, outside of your brothers, too. You 3 have a very special bond & I don't think anyone can break it but it will be good for you to find your own friends too.

They Make Me Smile!

I'm trying not to be "sad". Really, I am. I try to focus on the positive & know this is the right step for you. It's been such fun being able to be home everyday for the past 3 1/2 (almost 4 years). I've seen all your "firsts" & will witness yet another "first" for all of you tomorrow. I'm just thinking of all those funny moments that I will be missing from now on (& can't get recorded!). I have to admit, that there were some trying days (today was actually one of them) where everyone took a turn being bratty or cranky or whiny & I was really looking forward to having some time to myself. And then I got the sweetest hugs & the sweetest kisses and all of that melted away.

LOOK OUT WORLD, HERE WE COME!

Bottom line is...I Love You. I will be here for you always, whether you're in school or whether you're home. I can't wait to hear all the fun stories you're going to bring home.

Home Sweet Home..

Home almost a week from our vacation at grandma's. Lots of drama. So much so it made me question whether I want a baby girl. Guess that's what happens in a house full of girls! Even kids that were being watched were mostly girls. Thank goodness for my boys tipping the scales a bit in the other direction.

Visits were good but always way too short. I got to see my girlfriends a few times (always thankful for that!). It always centers me and gets me grounded. Venting is so important and healthy!!

The boys spent lots of quality time with my dad as he worked on the shed. They learned (& showed him) a lot about tools and tried to help as much as they could. They would light the fire at night & roasted some marshmallows. They really got to be grandpa's special helpers! I know he appreciated the time with them & they did too. They weren't as scared to do things this time around; more open to see & go inside of things (i.e. they finally weren't scared to go inside of the UPS airplane). They learned to swim with life vests on and were little daredevils and even jumping off the sides and going under the water at times.

We got to go to the zoo (although their hours are very short so we weren't there for long) and did a few things. E & G liked riding the camels & J really liked the boat & train ride (although ride was cut short).

We went to the Platte County Fair & to my surprise they enjoyed the rides and games. So much so that we took them to Chuck E Cheese & they loved it there too. I was pleasantly surprised to see how many more games there were. Toys are still kinda cheesy but at least you can upgrade and 1 penny equals one ticket. I looked up to see if we have some places here & at least there are a few. Nothing too terribly close but still, at least it exists around here. I found out about a train ride semi-close to my parents where a ride is only $.50 per person so we went on Saturday, August 9 & rode 3 times. We were going to go to Centre Island here but the weather is too cool this year (especially by the time we got back). Makes me sad...we only have so many months where warm weather is available & Mother Nature is making it cooler than it should be for this time of year. We took them back to Puddicombe Farms & rode the train so that helped ease the jiltedness of the zoo train.

As these days go by it just reminds me that they're headed to J/K soon. I've had my good days & bad days on this. I sat & watched some of their old videos yesterday & laughed/bawled at the same time. I just can't believe they were that little. Still makes me yearn for one sometimes. That innocence & wonder. I really do wonder what it would be like raising one little one.

So Far So Good...

We're about a week into our trip and so far everything is going well. The boys love visiting grandma and all the craziness that comes with it.

Our trip started early Sat morning about 9:30. We made it over the border with relatively no problems except for a 40 min wait at the Ambassador Bridge. I got my cell phone unlocked so I wanted to get my new sim card as soon as I could just in case we needed to use it. We were able to meet my cousin for a few minutes to give her the clothes for her son at the grocery store where the wireless store was located, then we headed to lunch. A little break for everybody out of our chairs & then we were headed back into the van for the next part of our trip. We stopped one more time for gas then drove for another hour & found a McD's for the kids to play at and stretch some more. I was glad that they got out some of their craziness and then headed back in the van. I drove from here for a few hours & once we stopped for gas again & headed into MO then kept going until we needed more gas & a potty break then kept going straight. We made it at about 4 a.m. with little veering off the road. We saw a few deer but they were on the shoulder this time (unlike last summer when one was wandering the middle of the road slowly). We saw a opossum & few other animals but luckily none of them went under our wheels. My sis, brother & parents were awake & met us as soon as the van stopped. The boys were awake the last 30 min of the drive so they could find the house when it was time. The boys finally got back down to sleep after 5 & then hip hip hooray E woke up at 8:30 *groan*. My dad was awake so he insisted that he was okay to watch him & that I should go up and sleep & mom would be back from church soon. I tried. I turned a few times and then 10 min later G woke up. I came down with him & then was up until the next night.

We took them to play at the splash pad. It wasn't as warm as it could have been but they still enjoyed it. The water wasn't too cold since it was in the sun all day. Once they got cold they went into The Grove & had a blast. Luckily we didn't have too much going on today so they got to play for a while.

Update...

The next morning, E came in at 7 and asked me to cover him up in his bed. I did and then he didn't wake up until 8:30. Very unusual when he doesn't come into our bed, but when he is upset with one of us he can go most of the night without popping in. He woke up in a chipper mood and wasn't upset with me. I was still a little miffed and I was planning on putting my plan in motion. I was very curt with him & didn't talk too much except when he asked me questions. 

We came downstairs & I started doing a few other things (the other 2 were still sleeping) & he started working on his puzzle. He asked me to help & I told him no. I told him he could start by saying he was sorry for last night. I ended up going to sit beside him to chat. I asked if he loved me, he said yes. I asked if he liked it when I did things for him, he said yes. Does daddy do anything different from what mommy does at night, he said no. Then why do you get so upset when mommy sits; just came back with a blank stare. I told him that I loved him & I loved doing things for him & being there for him but it really hurt me when he yells at me or screams like that. I asked if he would try to be nicer when it was my turn to sit with him at night & he said yes. I also got kisses and hugs afterwards. I've sat for them twice since we had that talk & "knock on wood" it's been a lot better (like 180 degrees better). For now, I'll take it when I can get it & hopefully there are more good days than bad days ahead.

Who Knew 3 Year Olds Could Resort GrownUps to Tears...

So Elias has been super attached to his dad lately. Which isn't a bad thing. I remember being attached to my dad since I didn't get to see him all the time. I know he misses his daddy when he goes to work. I love their special bond with each other. Elias knows all the names of the tools & knows what they do. He will sit on his dads lap on Sat/Sun with the flyers & go through the names of the tools with Mike. 

My problem, however, is when he flat out refuses me in situations where he doesn't really get a choice. In those situation he screams & keeps crying until he gets his way but we stand as firm as we can & don't let him have his way. 

Tonight, for example. They all need Vicks on their chest (as we all have colds except daddy & Gaby's is as far gone as bronchitis) to help them breathe. I decided to be the one to rub it on their chest & E flat out refused me. I kept saying, only one of us does it & my hands are already dirty. "No! I want daddy to do it"(repeated about 20 times). Once Mike finished putting on Jacob's diaper, he came over and held E's hands back & I rubbed Vicks on his chest (while he was still asking for daddy). He didn't scream or cry just kept repeating his mantra (while we repeated ours).

Fast forward 5 minutes & we are tucking them in bed. Mike & I take turns sitting with them until they fall asleep. We've been doing this since they've been able to get out of their cribs. It was my turn to sit. I tucked in Gaby & Jacob & let them send a message to auntie via Heytell. Mike was calmly telling E that it was mommy's turn to sit and that he would be tomorrow. And the new mantra started. "I want daddy to sit". After a few minutes I just ignored him & didn't let him send a message to auntie since he wasn't being nice to mommy. He kept crying & screaming his mantra and we stood our ground. I tried to tell him to quiet down so that his brothers could sleep all the while telling him that daddy would be sitting tomorrow. Nope. Wouldn't have it. More crying & mantra. I couldn't take it. I picked him up, and put him in the spare room & told him if he didn't want me, he could just sleep in a different room all together, threw a blanket on him & left. I took my post back in the chair. A couple of minutes later he walks in (of course still crying but not screaming as loud) that he wants daddy. I said if he kept saying that he could just stay in the other room by himself. He climbed into bed and I just had tears. I asked him why didn't he love me? I'm with him all day & do everything for him when he asks. Why doesn't he want me? I'm not that horrible when it's my turn to sit. I don't do anything. I quiet them down & tell them to go to sleep, but it's nothing that daddy doesn't do. I find his toys, etc & play with him. 

Is it wrong of me to want to "show him" what it would be like to have mommy not be friendly? Maybe not play with him. Maybe not find the toy when he asks. Maybe not give him that special chocolate or let him go with me by himself to the store. It may hurt me when I look into his eyes. I love him so much & it kills me when he yells like he does. Will it backfire? Only time will tell...

First sleepover!!

On Sunday, June 8th, Elias kept asking his grandma if he could go to her house. His main focus to go was that he wanted to play with his grandpa's tool box. I told him he had to wait & we'd go later this week. He decided he wanted to spend the night. I was surprised that he was pushing that hard to sleep over. Whenever she asked him to stay before he was so adamant that it was no. We tried to explain that if he went daddy would pick him up the next day and that he couldn't cry at night for us because grandma couldn't bring him back. He said he understood & would even repeat what we said. Finally, after dinner I went upstairs & packed a small bag for him. The group got up to leave & when G & J saw daddy put a car seat inside grandma's van they lost it. Just kept saying Yaso couldn't go without them & that they wanted him. We tried to explain that he was sleeping at grandma's & wouldn't be back until tomorrow & if they left they couldn't cry & couldn't bring them at night. They swore they were okay & wanted to go. So I went back upstairs & packed as much I could think of that they would all need & be comfortable with. They took our van instead (since 3 car seats can't fit in theirs) & away they went. I was just shocked. I didn't know what to do with myself. I hoped they would be good. Wasn't sure how far they'd actually get. Mike guessed they'd get to the end of the subdivision ask to come back.

We just kind of looked at each other in shock. I didn't know what to do. The house was too quiet. Since we'd already had dinner & it was a Sunday night there weren't many "date" things we could do. They called us before bed and J was a little teary eyed saying he wanted to come home but grandma assured him daddy would pick him up the next day & I told him I'd see him tomorrow. I had a little hard time sleeping fully all night but woke up refreshed around 8. Stayed in bed & they called me again around 8:30. They were all in good spirits & all slept the night through!

The next day I found a few errands I've been meaning to do. I talked to them a couple of times & they were in great spirits & had eaten well. They went to the park with grandma & had some snacks. By the time daddy came to get them E & J said they didn't want to leave! They were all a little subdued by the time they came home (Mike said they were trying to take naps on the way).

All in all it was a very successful first time. It's nice that they did it on their own instead of a "have to" situation. Now whenever we "have to" they already know what it's like & it won't be such a big deal.

Proud of you boys!!

Live in nanny cont'd...

On Sunday, May 25 we went to the Harborfront Park in Hamilton for the Cystic Fibrosis walk. This is the 3rd year we have done the walk & every year, my sister, Angelina has come with us. Luckily it was a gorgeous day & the kids had fun. Mike had a visitation he had to go to after we got home. Ang & I took the kids out for a bike ride after lunch. Mike met up with us on roller blades & then we switched "vehicles". Ang & I got on bikes & put the kids in the strollers with Mike still on roller blades. Of course, they persuaded us to take a little detour to the park...

There was a fire engine on site & they let the kids come in & offered them coloring books. 

Had to beat up daddy with our new balloons

Group shot!

J didn't want to take a pic with the ladies...he's going to regret that later!

The ducky game. G & J got nerds & E ended up with a lollipop. It was so big they all ended up getting a lick. 

Monday, Ang had to leave. The boys were super sad & had a hard time dealing with the fact that auntie got out of the van & we had to leave her at the airport. They cried for at least 5 min on the way back to grandma's house. Luckily Ang had an easier time getting home than she did coming in. We've definitely missed having her here but we will see her very soon!